My Life

Man it has been foever.....i almost forgot that I even had one of these. Except for the fact that everytime I see Devon she asks when I am going to get on again. LOL! Neways.....lots of things are different, sorta......well.......I actully talk to people and hang out, and I am not really as shy I talk to new people sometimes, other than that I am still mean.....and I have two new "besties", LOL! And these last two day have been like a living hell, because my cousin's boyfriend (who is one of my friends, and i introduced them or else they never would have met) broke up with her, could not even do it to her face, had to write a note. And then it comes to find out that he broke up with her for her best friend. And I was like no no one can do that to her, so after she came to me bawling her eyes out, I went and found Jacob, then told his subsutite teacher that I needed to talk to him outside in the hall, so she let him leave class, and so she had been waiting in the hall. So I started going off on him and he just stood there smiling the whole time, like he had not a care in the world, and as I found out today during first block, he dosen't he feels that everything is right in his world, and he has not a problem. He is happy and supposedly that is all that matters to him, and it all that should matter to anyone else. The way that he sees it, why should he care what is wrong with her of that she has been crying her eyes out for the past two days, as long as he is happy and in a good mood, and no one is bothering him, it is like nothing has ever happened. Except that now except for me he ignores the whole family, and he talks to me because we have a class together and we sit together so of course he still talks to me, but I made sure that he knew that I was not happy with him and did not want to talk to him or Jake at all. And then he had the nerve to ask me why I was mad at him, like the fact that he just broke my cousins heart was not supposed to bother me at all.....yea right, sure.....i swear but still I had told her not to break up with Cody (the guy that she was dating that was Jacob's competition), i told her that she would not be happy with Jacob, that she should just stay with Cody, and she said no she did not believe me, that she could and would be happy with Jacob, and I have already known that something would happen, cause Jacob's last girlfriend was one of my best friends, so this is the second time that there has been drama over him, except last time Leslie broke up with him and she was thrilled, and Jacob got what he deserved......so then on top of all that I do have my own problems to worry about, like the other day i left my jacket in my third block class and i went back to get it and it was gone which means that someone stole it and so now i have no jacket and so i had to call amanda this morning and tell her that i needed her to bring her HIM jacket to school so that I could borrow it and wear it cause i had none......and then i am having guy problems like always, i swear not a day goes by that something does not happen that i have to fix.....not that i mind, its just that sometimes i would like to worry about my own problems instead of everyone elses.....

well school is goin okay, except i almost fall asleep in most of my classes.

and i am still goin to justin's party on thursday like i had originally planned, except i am goin an hour late i think cause i am gonna go on and go to the banquet then i can see jay, cause i want to talk to him and tell him something. and plus it will be fun.

my friend jacob is makin me mad, he keeps flirtin with kimmy cause he likes her or w/e and she is goin out with cody and yet she flirts back, so that just pushes jacob on, and it is makin cody mad, and kimmy told me today that if her and cody broke up then she was going to go out with jacob, and i was like omg, cause jacob is tryin to fight with cody, and he said tomarrow at school that he is gonna be all over kimmy while cody is there, cause he wants to stir things up, both kimmy and cody will be miserable, but jacob will have his fun so he thinks that it is all good, but it wont be, cause kimmy counts down days from wednesday till sunday so that she gets to see cody, and everything, she loves him, and everythin is gonna be messed up, and i cant get jacob to give up...the shit is gonna hit the fan

but i did get an ipod nano yesterday

i got an ipod nano today!! i was excited as soon as i opened it, i started inporting songs on it! its great :D

Well today was the first day af school, and I was all happy cause that meant that I got to see my friends,(but then i meet my teachers and had to go to class and then everything went downhill, and amanda did not help at all) and I thought that if we got back to school again then maybe me and amanda would get back to normal, cause it bothers me that she dosent talk to me anymore, she always talked about how tabitha got on her nerves really bad last year, i dont even know how many times she told me that, then this summer every time that i talked to her she was with tabitha, or more tabitha was at her house with her, and we were really close last year we were best friends told each other everything, and we were always together, nothing ever came between us, but then over the summer something changed, cause now it is all about tabitha and jesse, she dosent even sit with me on the morning bus anymore this year, and last year she got mad at jesse if she set there cause she wanted to sit with me. i just dont understand what happened, i want things back like they were last year, i want amanda back (not in a weird lesiban way) she was my best friend, i still want her to be my best friend, she dosent even know who i like now, and i had to find out who she was going out with from jesse she did not say anything about it till i said to her on the phone that jesse said she was going out with some scary guy. i just really dont know what is going on, and i want things to change, if i try to talk to her about it, like if i say that i want to go back to ninth grade cause now we dont talk or if i say that we did not tlak any over the summer that i wish that we did cause i missed talking to her that we should hang out, she is always busy. i just dont know, did i do something wrong...*cry* *big fat tears*

1. Put your music player of choice or whatever on random.
2. Post the first line from the first 21 songs that play, no matter how embarrasing the song.
3. Post and let everyone you know quess what song and artist the lines come from.
4. Strike out the lines when someone guesses correctly.
5. Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING!
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1.I almost got drunk at school at 14
2.Well if you wanted honesty that's all you had to say
3.I'm looking at you through that glass
4.Story of my life searching for the right
5.Believe, the news,
6.This halloween i think that we should be together
7.I have to block out thoughts of you
8.I wanted you to know
9.I cannot take this anymore
10.A Wraith with an angels body
11.brake me down
12.I know when hes been on your mind
13.I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
14.Memories concern
15.And i would do anything for love, i'd run right into hell and back
16.honey why you calling me so late
17.This shining city bulit of gold, a far city from innocence
18.Let me know that I've done wrong
19.I'm 15 for a moment
20.maing my way downtown
21.Get a load of me, get a load of you

Well tonight we bowled my dad, and we were both tied for first place, and we lost all of the games, so they have first and we are like forth or fifth, it sucks big time. we lost the first game cause of me, and tommy said that the second game was his fault, and the third game was a free for all...

Well tonite me, Beth, and her brother Blake, went to see Monster House. it was pretty cool, it was funny we had a great time. we are talkin about going to see barn yard on friday. i want to go, but i dont know if i am gonna get to

Well I can't believe that school starts in a week! A WEEK! It is amazing. Oh well I wanted it to start so that I could have something to do, becuase I have been extremly bored.

I have french class with Jake and Jacob, and the three of us plus beth had french together last year, and parker hated it cause we talked nonstop...beth did not really talk much but the threee of us did, and we have it together this year too, minus beth, so we are gonna walk in together and be like hey mrs.parker, she is gonna hate us, LOl, plus she has us first class in the morning,

Classes:

A Day:

Etymology/Clinical Termonilgy-J.Dunn
English 2 Accelerated-K.Holt
Chemistry 1 Accelerated-K.Shadrick
Algebra 2 Accelerated-J.Blalock

B Day:

French 2-K.Parker
ISS2 Accelerated-J.Hunter
Computer Graphics-J.Wilson
Art 1-J.Goodwin

I have one class with my friend Jacob (French), I have one class with my cousin Kimberly(Computer Graphics), and I have no classes with Jesse, and I might have one with Amanda but I dont think so, I hope that I have classes with you Rebecca, I have to have a friend with me, I dont want to have all of my classes alone, cause on A days, Jesse and Amanda have every class together, and one on B days...

Well today I saw an awesome pair of Vans that i wanted, and they were on sale. and my mom would not buy them cause she said that she did not have the money, and that made me so mad, i did not talk to her the rest of the day. i am gonna get thoose shoes...

one of my best friends, jesse, got her nose pierced. and i have been tryin to get mine pierced for ever and my mom keeps sayin not while she is still alive and all that jazz, but i am gonna get it pierced whenever i am 18 or maybe 16...or maybe i will just get one of my friends to do it for me. idk that would hurt and it might get infected

Well today I went bowling as usual. I did pretty good, out of six games I got...110 (two strikes), 89 (one strike), 85, 119 (one strike), 108, and 83. So out of the six games I broke one hundred three times. So I guess that I am doing good, for a mostly beginner, but I need to rock these last few weeks of the season, because in about two weeks, it will be the "last week" and we are bowling my dads team, then the next week is postion round and if my team and my dads team stay in the same spots that we are in now, then we will be bowling each other two weeks in a roll. And I need to go good, because my team is in first place, and this is the first year that I have bowled on the league, so if we win I will not feel so crappy about sucking. :) *crosses fingers*

Well it made me sad my buddy wasn't there tonight.

I called Devin to see if she wanted to go and bowl with me and then come and spend tonight and she said that she would, but she had to go to church. So I said okay I will talk to you later then. And then like five seconds later she called back and asked me if I wanted to just go to church with her, and I said that I had to go bowling to practice for tomarrow night, and so she asked if I wanted to go to church with her on Sunday, and I said that I had to make sure that I was not doing anything, and my parents said that I could go, so I asked her if I could wear jeans and stuff, and she said that you had to dress up, so I have to wear a SKIRT! And that majorly sucks, cause I hate skirts and dresses, but I haven't seen Devin in a long time, so I am gonna suck it up and go with her anyways. So she is coming to pick me up that morning, so I have to get up early to fix my hair and get all pretty and "girly" fied. Which should be fun. :) Plus Devin said that she would not tell anyone, that I wore a skirt. So it won't hurt my rep at school. LOL! Like I really care what other people think. I could care less!

Well the family reunion is offically over today, one is leaving on a flight tomarrow at 6:30 a.m. and then the other one is leaving monday at 6:30 a.m., and then there will be only one left, and she may stay another week so something, no telling when she will leave, but she is cool, and she comes up alot during the year anyways, so...

Well I talked to amanda last night and she said that she is having some problems, but she does not want to talk about it right now, and I think that something has happened to us, whenever we were in school, everything that happened we told each other as soon as it happened, and I guess that distance or something has changed things, I don't know but I want things to go back to the way that they were, she knows about jay, and she has been really helpful throught the whole thing...but still I want school to start so that things will go back to normal (plus that will give me something to do)

Life sucks major. And guy that I have ever liked I have never gone out with and a few of them have not even known that I liked them. Well Jay (the guy that I like now) he bowls with me on the league on thursdays, and so I get to see him every week and it makes me happy I wait in anticipation for that day so that I can see him and talk to him. And it is like the bright light in my life. But he owes my dad fifteen dollars, so my dad said that until he gets his money that he is not gonna give Jay a ride home so that cuts down on time that I get to see him. That makes me sad. But there is just a few little problems, that are the reason that we will probably never go out, one is that he is either ten or eleven years older than me, and two he was married to one of my old friends and they have a one year old baby together. That could cause a big problem....I just hate life!

Well last night Rebecca spent tonite at my house, and we went bowling and we bowled five games, and I won three and she won two, and for one of thoose she won a candy bar! It was really fun, but I ususally bowl like eight or nine, but because Meagan and Ericia was bowling with us, they kept playing with a baby and talking and everything, so it took way longer, and so my dad got tired of sitting there and so we went home...I think that I may have got on Rebecca's nerves of something because I kept getting steadly madder the worse that I did, and the longer that they took to go and bowl. And Meagan was using my ball and I never let anyone use it, and she just went up there and used it, and it just got steadly worse...I hope that everything is still okay between us, because it was really fun that you spent tonite, and Harry Potter Scene It was awesome, we will need to play some more some time, that is the one game that we know almost every question to...LOL!

(BTW: Shannon thank you for the shirt that you brought me from Hawaii)

Then this morning/afternoon when Rebecca left, her and her dad dropped me off at my cousins house and I thought that whenever I got over there we were going to play badmittion as soon as Chris got done playing Spades with my granma and like my aunt or other grandma (im not sure bout that) but then he went and got on the PS2 and I went and woke Steven up, so that me and him could go and play, and he said that he was going to finsh his book first, so I asked Kimberly, and she was waiting for her friends the twins, Kristen and Heather, to get there, so Chris said that whenever the twins got there then it would be me, him, and Steven against Kimberly and the twins. So they said that they would be there after they brushed their teeth and put their shoes on, well an hour later they called and said that they were heading to Wal*Mart really quick to get some stuff then they would be there, then they called even later to say that they had to run something that they bought out to their grandpa so that would take even longer. Then when they finally got there they said that they were ready to play, but Kimberly said to hold on second and she took them in her room and shut the door, then they said that they were trying on some of the dresses and costumes that one of my family members brought for the family reunion, (which she gave three of to kim and I have yet to get a single one) but anyways....and so that took even longer, so Steven and me went outside and was gonna play until they got out there, but I was on the side facing the sun, so I could not see anything, so I sucked. Then Chris came outside and turned his car on and cranked it up and we were listening to music while we played like we always do, and he was like standing half way under the net and was playing on both sides. Then finally Kim and the twins came outside, and the twins told us that they had never played before, and so it was basically Kim versus Steven and Chris, because I might have hit five birdies in two hours. I was doing extremly bad, and I have no clue why. Then I went inside the house at three o'clock, cause I was supposed to take a shower at their house before bowling, and I called my dad to see if he wanted to just pick me up at their house when he got ready to go to bowling and he told me to forget about it and to walk home and take a shower. So I did and then I got ready.

Then we got to the bowling alley, and I was waiting to start, but I decided to go and play a practice game before we started so my friend Brittany came down there to bowl a few games with me before we had to bowl bowl. And so I did good then I got 108 and like 104 or somthin, and I won one game and Brittany won one game, and I got a few strikes and a few spares and everything. And then we had to go and actully start league bowling, and I always suck then for some odd reason. So the first game I got 70 something, then I got 111, and then the last game I got 80 something, and my average is 97 so I only got my average one game which means that it will go down again by next week. But we still won all of the games (think god that my team is awesome and dosent really need me) and so that put us in first place, and then my dads team moved into second place.

But there was a bright side, I got to see the guy that I like, cause he is on my team. That caused some problems, cause i dont know, that may be why I bowl bad, cause I am worried about him watching...I dont really know, I know that I like him though...

Oh my god, as I sit here trying to be all out of everybody business and stuff...the neighbors up the road are going crazy, one of them is playing the drums and then every now and then you can hear one of the start strummin a guitar. That is exactly why my parents would not get me one because they said that everybody in the neighborhood would be able to hear it, well I guess that that dosen't stop some people....

I felt so bad today, I completly forgot that Rebecca said something about coming over today, I thought that she was gonna be here tomarrow, so as soon as my cousin had drove to my house to get me and then drove me to his house, my mother called, and she said that Rebecca and her dad were at my house looking for me, becuase Rebecca said that she had told me that she was coming over today, and I thought that she was gonna call, and then I was gonna tell her that I would see her tomarrow, cause me and my cousins had plans to go to the movies today, and then she was here, and it made me feel so bad, that I forgot I have never done that before, and I can't believe how bad that must have made her feel. I am so sorry Rebecca I still love u! And I am extremly sorry that you had to meet my extended family. LOL!

Well my family reunion started yesterday and three people showed up and my cousin chris went and picked up one at the airport at 3:30 and then we had to go and get one at 8:30 pm, so we did not get home until 10:00 and then i got on the net until 11:00 it was fun. well now i have to spend ahole week with people that never even talk to me anyways...funness. well i guess i will do what i always do, stay at my house watching tv or being on the net, or when i get ready to go and play w/ my cousins then i can do that life will go on as normal except w/ more people in the way.

Im still having guy problems i want to tell him that i like him, but the only time that we are together both of our dads are there and he is 10 or 11 years older than me...why does love have to be so complicated...:(

Well tonight at bowling was fun. And I can't believe that Leslie and Jacob broke up. It was really sad.

I have a little problem...I think that I like one of my friends only problem is that he is about 10 years older than me if not more, but I feel really funny around him, and I stare at him when I think that he is not looking but then when he looks at me and sees me looking at him, I freak and turn around and look the other way. I don't know what is going on, I haven't really ever felt this way, but I know that there is almost no way that it can ever work out...

Well my life like revolve around bowling that is like all that I ever do anymore. That has become like my life or something because I never do anything else. On Mondays I go to the bowling alley with my dad and miss my show becase I love to watch him bowl becasue he is really good so I go and sit there on Mondays. Then on Tuesdays, I don't go. But then on Wednesdays they have the Quarter Mania where you pay $5 for the first game and that includes your shoes and everything, then it is only a quarter a game after that. So we go up there on Wednesdays so that I can practice, and then on Thursdays we both bowl on the mixed league on seperate teams though, and it is really fun because my team has been beating my dads team most of the time and other than that we have been tied. It has been awesome. But I do pretty good on Wednedays and then we get up there on Thurdays and I don't do very good at all, I mean I am usually lucky if I get one good game let alone three in a row. But hey it is all about having fun...at least that is what everyone tells me but that could just be because they don't want me to feel bad since I suck. LOL! But hey that is okay...I guess...

On Saturday Rebecca, Jesse, and me went to Venture River! And it was lots of fun because this time I actully wore sun screen so I did not have to make another trip to the emergency room like the last trip to Venture River caused so that was good, very good! And while we were there, we saw Darren, and two of his female friends and they hated us, which Shelby has always hated me cause we always fight everytime that we see each other, but the other chick Ashley thought that we were trying to steal Darren "away from her" and they aren't even going out, and since Shelby likes him too, they were like trying to be all over him, and then he swan away and came over there talking to us and they just got madder at them so he had to go and sothe them and so he invited them over there with us, and they still only talked to each other, so I don't see what the point was, but hey not my problem. Then we saw these two guys and we were laughing at the one guy cause he had found a bettle and he named it Rocco, and he was playing with it and then the other guy came over there talking to us, and Jesse decided that he was cute, and she wanted his phone number. So I was gonna go and get it for her and she chickened out and got out of the wave pool. So Rebecca and me went over to Darren and the guy and got Darren to ask the guy for his phone number so that we could give it to Jesse. And the guy said YES and then he looked around for Jesse and she had left and since she was gone he said no never mind. So...Jesse was upset because she did not get it, but then she said that that was okay considering the fact that she had a boyfriend anyways. But she was still upset. LOL it as a lot of fun!